Just wanted to let you guys know the latest....
The doctor asked for another CAT and abother bone test before he starts therapy, She has the bone test thursday and the CAT Friday morning. I just got off the phone with her andshe was feeling it hard. With me off on this job, she's kinda feeling as if she's going through this alone, ehich I guess she is, actually, but emotionally I with her every step of the way. She knows I need to work for the insurance and the money to get us through this time, I really would be there now if I could and she knows it, I could use the Family Emergency Leave Actm I suppose, but I think I need to save that untilit will be needed the most. With it I would still have the insurance but no money coming in.
I know it's not God's fault, but, sometimes it can be real diffcult to not throw the blame His way. I realize it might not be a good thing to say, but I figure He knows I'm feeling that way so I might as well admit to it.
I know it's hard for her to be going through this alone, the doctors and the tests and the fear....all of it overwhelming her and I wish I could do more than I am...but with 300 hundred miles between us, or close to it, at least, sometimes I feel about as lost as she does right now.
Pardon me, if I seem to come across as if I'm tearing up.... It's just a bit hard to know she's feeling the way she is.....
I just wish the doctors would finish their tests and get on with the treatment....
Steve